Darren Gough believes England's selectors are holding a grudge against him after his TV dancing antics.
Gough opted out of last winter's tours to spend time with his family but then appeared on a BBC talent show.
"I never give up and I'm determined to get back in but the only reason I'm not selected was the fact I did Strictly Come Dancing," he told BBC Five Live.
"The reason I took the winter off was to spend some time with my children and it was the best winter I've had."
He said of his decision: "I don't regret it one bit - I spent some quality time with my children."
Gough, who turns 36 in September, retired from Test cricket three years ago but was part of the one-day side last summer, before deciding against touring Pakistan and India.
"If I don't get a recall for the Pakistan series, I'm not going to get the recall"
Since his last appearance, England have lost 13 of their 16 one-day internationals, with one of their victories coming over Ireland.
Gough's 234 ODI wickets are 89 more than any other England bowler and more than the combined career tally of the attack used during the 5-0 series defeat to Sri Lanka.
The one-day side's next assignment is a five-match series against Pakistan, after the current Test matches, with two more 50-over tournaments before the World Cup.
Gough told the Simon Mayo programme: "A lot of people on commentary are saying, 'England's best bowler is playing for Essex.'
"It's up to me to keep performing and let people push for me to get back in.
"If I don't get a recall for the Pakistan series, I'm not going to get the recall but I can only put in my performances on the field."