If someone had offered me the chance of playing in the final of the Welsh Open at the start of the season, I'd have snapped their hand off.
But after losing a close battle with Ronnie O'Sullivan, I've got mixed emotions.
It was a good return to some much-needed form, but I let a big fish off the hook.
I don't view this as some sort of comeback because there are so many good players around.
I have not set myself any targets this year but I have it in the back of my mind that I want to be in the world's top 16 at 50
You just have to try and be patient, wait your chance and take it when it comes around.
A bit like the golfing world, you can be in the doldrums for a while and just hit form.
And for a couple of years, I lost a bit of direction and motivation.
My attitude towards the game has changed now. I am nowhere near as intense as I used to be.
It is okay to be that single-minded when you are younger but you change emphasis when you get older.
I do not put pressure on myself to try and win, so when I do win I enjoy it more.
I have not set myself any targets this year but I have it in the back of my mind that I want to be in the world's top 16 at 50.
So it is a long-term job I have in mind.
I need to make sure I am physically capable of withstanding the pressure as I get older.
I am going to get myself relatively fit - perhaps run a half marathon in the summer - and see if I can hold back the years.
Without a snooker table and snooker balls my life would fall apart
I won't bash my life out practising because I don't need to - it is like riding a bike.
But I could not survive without the game - without a snooker table and snooker balls, I would fall apart!
And I am still driven to play because the competition is so exciting.
The public like a trier and it is quite nice for me now.
I actually get a few cheers of "come on" from the crowd.