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Survivor's diary: Your reaction

Rachel from north London was in the bombed carriage of the Tube train travelling from King's Cross to Russell Square on the Piccadilly line.

Read a selection of your comments and thoughts about Rachel's experiences.

Your comments:

Let us be thankful for such things which help us to deal with the hard times
Tony, Wales
This account is precious. I was especially moved by the colour of personal experience - sitting in the garden looking at the flowers and the cat going to sleep. Let us be thankful for such things which help us to deal with the hard times and make life worth living. Maybe in our rush to live our lives we need to make more time for such things.
Tony, Wales

Have just finished reading all of "Rachel's" diary entries from start to finish, what an amazing woman with a great ability to write in such as way at to let people who were not involved, understand what it must have been like.
Shelley Smyth, Rode, Somerset, UK

I've just read all the e-mails from Rachel. She really is brave. Please let her know my thoughts are with her and all the people who have been affected by this atrocious act. I used to live near Old Street and my girlfriend still does. I had heard that my brother and nephew were OK, but had not been able to get in touch with my friend till Sunday. God bless you all.
Michele, Toronto, Canada

Your postings are written from the heart
Kirsty, Wakefield, UK
Rachel, well done!! It must be comforting to know there are many others in your position. Your postings are written from the heart, nothing spared and maybe in a sense, will help you come to terms with your experience. I don't think I could ever comprehend what you and your fellow travellers experienced, and I admire you all for showing your resilience. Good luck to you all, and my sincere sympathy to everyone who lost a loved one.
Kirsty, Wakefield, UK

Well done Rachel! You are such a brave woman! I don't Know what I would have done in your situation!
Naomi, Welwyn Garden City, Herts

Well done girl. You are an inspiration to all.
Judi, Ipswich

Thank you so much for writing your diary, Rachel. My friend was on one of the trains but wasn't hurt. She was going to a medical course at the Royal Marsden but went to help at UCH. She was there for several hours and says she saw some grim scenes. You were both there, at different ends of that terrible experience. Keep writing Rachel, for yourself and for the rest of us who are following your efforts to comprehend and recover. In a few words, you say so much. I wish you well. You will get through this.
Rebecca, Worcester

I really respect her courage in taking the tube again
Angela, London
Having been on the 3rd carriage of the same train as Rachel, it's a comfort to know that I'm not alone in feeling as I do. I really respect her courage in taking the tube again; it's not something that I have yet been able to do, although I will at some point. Everything is still too raw, tunnels and crowds are a real problem to deal with.
Angela, London

I'm sitting here with floods of tears blurring my eyes after reading Rachel's diary. What a brave woman! My heart goes out to her, and her new-found friends. This country has nothing to fear whilst we have such wonderful citizens. May God bless her and all who have suffered this terrible, terrible tragedy.
Patricia McCourt, Formby, Liverpool

Rachel's bravery in recounting how she is feeling and facing each challenge is a credit to her - her daily postings are inspirational - as a mother whose daughter works in London but was not caught up in the carnage I salute her exposing her innermost thoughts to all of us. It paints a very vivid picture of that awful day.
Dorothy Jackson, Crawley

Your diary gave me the ability to comprehend what you and my daughter went through
Victor Hoch, Johannesburg, SA
Rachel, as a parent of a young lady who was in the same coach as you were, I am thankful to you for publishing your diary. It gave me the ability to comprehend what you and my daughter went through. May God's blessings be with you.
Victor Hoch, Johannesburg, SA

Gosh, I am sat at work, reading your accounts and trying not to cry. You will get through it and I am glad you are meeting people who have been through it all like you. I look forward to reading your next account and hopefully I will have calmed down a bit.
Maz, Manchester

What an amazing, honest account. The bit about not being able to listen to music yet speaks volumes.
Simon Herbert, Twickenham

Rachel - It is people like you who make Britain Great. You are very, very brave. I hope time helps to heal the memories. Stay healthy and take care.
Tim, High Wycombe, England

Everyone says Londoners are so brave and it's true, I'm not sure if I can include myself though
Jamie Mackler, London, England
I've just read all Rachel's comments and for the first time since the bomb blast I can feel the tears welling up. I was on the same train as Rachel, at the back of the second carriage. Everything you write are things that I also experienced. The smell, smoke, sounds of screams will haunt me forever although hearing from someone else makes it easier to come to terms with. A lot of people want to know what happened but I'm tired of talking about it. I wish I could chat to other people who were on that train. There were so many brave people in the train - I wish I'd exchanged contact details with some of them. I got on the tube for the first time on Monday. I also can't help looking into the faces of everyone near me and if I see a bag by itself I will be the first to make a fuss. I shudder every time the tube hits the breaks. I feel so lucky I wasn't killed but my heart aches for those that weren't so lucky. Everyone says Londoners are so brave and it's true, I'm not sure if I can include myself though. I hate feeling so scared. I hope it passes.
Jamie Mackler, London, England

I would like you to let Rachel know that her daily accounts are inspiring to all. My daughter lives in London and normally never travels into the city but last Thursday she was doing a fashion shoot in Piccadilly. Luckily she had been taken in by car and not tube or bus. I was on holiday and heard on the radio about electricity surges, but immediately feared the worst. She soon phoned to let us know she was safe and OK, her boyfriend had text her to say he was stuck on a tube. He was running late otherwise he too would have been on The Aldgate train. He had to witness all the injuries at the station once he was led off. So many people have been affected by this tragic event and my thoughts and prayers go to all those injured and the families, the pain must be with those still waiting for confirmation of those with missing loved ones, it must be indescribable what they are going through. I have heard it said that in every adversity there are equal and greater benefits. Through listening to all the accounts, we have seen ordinary people become heroes and the community spirit become stronger and the people of London stand up and will not let all our freedoms be stolen by the cowardice actions of sick minded individuals.
Vicky, Bristol

Rachel thank you for your honesty. I felt tears run down my face during reading your postings. Aren't Londoners marvellous people? Rachel take care, don't be afraid to keep talking about the bombings and asking for help. I don't know you but I admire you for what you have written.
Sylvia Cowell, Huntingdon, Cambridgeshire

I have only just come across Rachel's diary whilst I was having lunch. I have a colleague who was actually in London on Thursday but thankfully he wasn't travelling on the tube. He arrived at Euston Station to find it full of police and the sound of police cars, fire engines etc tearing around. I will look forward to reading the rest of Rachel's diary but she sounds as if she is starting to come out on the other side of an awful ordeal. Good luck to you, and Mark, I'm sure you'll both be fine.
Fiona, Warrington

I think Rachel is so brave. I am glad that she made it out. As she said, there is a faint glimmer of hope for lots of people who are still searching for loved ones. We should not allow these senseless acts of terrorism to detract from the beauty and stoicism that has come to be associated with the British.
Chichi, Abuja, Nigeria

I was moved to tears reading your article
James Raven, London
Rachel, at 32 years old I have also recently escaped the jaws of death having beaten cancer. I was also in Thailand en route to the tsunami areas, so it's made me more caring about the world and people. I was moved to tears reading your article.
James Raven, London

Rachel, your bravery and determination are, like everyone involved, a source of inspiration and pride in what is good about humanity. I have read other posts from survivors who said their fear made them feel like a coward - I say it makes you human and to carry on in spite of your fear makes you all very brave people.
Gary, Peterborough

This article has moved me more than any of the articles I have read in the press or seen on the TV. John should be proud of Rachel. London and the rest of the country should be proud of Rachel and the thousands like her who are going through similar ordeals. Whilst she will never forgot, here is hoping that the painful memories will ease over time.
Derek French, Eastbourne, England

I have read your updates every day. I just wanted to say keep going and well done. You are an inspiration to us all.
David Manley, Scotland

Rachel and the other people involved in the bombing are absolutely amazing
Susan Houghton, Smethwick, UK
Rachel and the other people involved in the bombing are absolutely amazing. I ended up in tears after I read the account of her recent days and the journey back on the tube. I am not so sure I could have done it. Best wishes to you and everyone, you have showed the utmost courage. Sympathy to those who lost loved ones in this tragedy.
Susan Houghton, Smethwick, UK

Rachel, thank you for sharing your experiences, well done you for getting on the tube today. I really admire your strength and determination.
Gillian, London, UK

Rachel, I was in a helicopter accident a couple of years ago and, like you, think myself lucky to still be around. It will get easier, I promise. Getting back on the tube is the right thing to have done. For me it's getting on a plane. I know how you feel - the description you give is pretty accurate to my feelings too - and I know that you are going the right way. Bit of advice? Let your GP get you a councillor (it can take a long time for some symptoms of post-trauma to show and a couple of hours chatting won't hurt if it's not any good) and enjoy feeling the rain on your face. I do.
David Webster, Edinburgh

You brave, brave lady - it's been scary enough coming into the city since last Thursday for those of us fortunate to have not been near the explosions when they happened, but your courage and endurance is so inspirational and if you can do it, so can the rest of us. I hope each journey gets easier for you, and all the very best for the future. A big hug x
Michelle, Herts

Rachel, just reading your daily experiences has bought tears. I don't know you from Adam but I am so proud of you.
Sheila Mistry, Milton Keynes

In times where you feel there is little hope, people have a habit of surprising you
Cassandra King, Berkshire
I feel like I suddenly found a human side to myself, I know it sounds strange but I'm not usually affected by the things I see on the news. I suppose because this evil happened right on the doorstep it's chilling, I read Rachel's story and it moved me to tears, my heart bleeds for all the people who were caught up in this terror. My sister was in Russell Square when the bomb hit, luckily she is OK, but she managed to rescue a blind man and his guide dog Sanderson, it shows that in times where you feel there is little hope, people have a habit of surprising you. It seems we all worked as a team that day regardless of race, gender and age. I'm so glad Rachel got out alive, and my thoughts are with those who were not so lucky.
Cassandra King, Bracknell, Berkshire

Rachel - you sound like a really wonderful, caring person. I have just read your diary since 7th July to today. You sound loved by lots of people and I am so glad you have such a caring partner and friends to look after you at this difficult time. I am glad you are still alive as you come across like someone who will be an inspiration to others who have been through the same traumatic experience. I would like to send you all my good wishes and to express my admiration of your courage and honesty about how you have been affected by the bombing. Good luck to you and your partner and have a wonderful life.
Sue Myrie, Milton Keynes, Bucks

Reading the diary of Rachel, I have been inexplicably filled with emotion and pride for someone I don't know, but who I know represents the true spirit of my countrymen. Being an ex-pat has always made me fiercely proud to be an Englishman but this week the feeling has never been so strong. I feel desperate and sick for the victims and their families and those who don't know where there loved ones are but it'll be a miracle if I don't get the Union Jack tattooed by Friday. Keep on keeping on.
Lisa, Sydney, Australia

The courage and determination that Rachel has shown highlight the futility of the bombers' actions. While not perfect, ours is a society that is worth standing up for. Rachel's account demonstrates how attempts to undermine our way of life with violence will only serve to remind us of its value. The bombers have proved that they have an ability to destroy lives and bring great sorrow to many families. But Londoners have shown that our compassion, kindness and strength of character will not be broken by evil.
Jamie, London-based Geordie

It helps to put things into perspective for those of us that have no choice but to use the Tube and buses
Gill, Catford, London
Rachel, I think you are just wonderful for sharing your experiences with us all. It helps to put things into perspective for those of us that have no choice but to use the Tube and buses to get to our places of work. Please be assured that I and many others like me would be more than happy to break the "don't talk" rule if we found you in need of our support.
Gill, Catford, London

As a Brit living in France, I just feel terribly sad for all of those who have lost loved ones. And very proud of all those in London, all nationalities, all colours and all religions, determined to get on with their lives. My thoughts are with you.
Jacqueline Marshall, Chabons France

Reading Rachel's diary has given me the courage to try and face getting on the Tube again. I narrowly missed being caught up in the Aldgate bomb (I'd come out of Liverpool St BR and was diverted by the prospect of Oasis' half price sale). My love of clothes may have saved my life.
Samantha Downes, London

Rachel, well done, you showed great courage today getting back on the train! I can't even begin to imagine what you went through, but time and talking are great healers. I'm due to come to London next Wednesday, I was apprehensive, but if you can do it, I guess I can, keep your head up, if we all stick together, we'll beat them!
Michelle, Stevenage, Herts

I cannot begin to comprehend the whirlwind of emotions that she must be forced to endure
Sarah, Nottingham
The commentary posted by Rachel about her experience of the blast is extremely moving. I cannot begin to comprehend the whirlwind of emotions that she must be forced to endure, but it is a testament to her bravery, love of life, and above all else human kindness, that she is able to express them so fluently. The passage "Of whether the face opposite me would be the face that looked into my eyes and held my hand if the unimaginable happened. Of whether the stranger on the train would be the guide in the panic and the voice in the dark" was particularly inspiring. I hope these very words warm the hearts of those that believe the terrorists are winning, and bring them hope of the spirit that Londoners have shown.
Sarah, Nottingham

I found Rachel's article very moving. Words can't express the deep feelings of sadness I felt, but also of pride. It makes me feel so proud of England to see that even though Rachel was injured, her immediate thoughts were not of herself but of those around her.
Emma Royston, Battle, UK

I use the same tube station Finsbury Park as Rachel and my journey was also severely disrupted by somebody leaving a bag at Euston Station this morning. It is astonishing that with things being so difficult people are still being so careless and stupid to do these kind of things.
Lindsay Pritchard, London

What an amazing yet personal account. Rachel should write a book! I'm delighted that she has such great resolve along with the other survivors. 2012 will be an amazing year with the Olympics: Rachel and the other survivors should be VIPs and carry the torch into the stadium. God bless them all.
Baz, Reading, UK

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