Ledger and Williams met on the set of Brokeback Mountain
Actress Michelle Williams has spoken about how she dealt with the death of her ex-boyfriend Heath Ledger.
The 29-year-old said she "didn't know if I could keep it all together" after the actor's death in January 2008 of an accidental prescription drug overdose.
"I was holding it together by a string and a paper clip in the fall and winter," she told fashion magazine Vogue.
The couple had a daughter, Matilda, who is now three.
They met on the set of their 2005 movie, Brokeback Mountain, but split up four months before Ledger's death.
Williams said she had been "seriously accident-prone" and "distracted" during the past year.
Often she would "cry, nap, sit and stare, try to figure out what to make her [Matilda] for dinner, talk to friends on the phone".
But she found refuge in gardening, which is when things started to "turn round" for her, she said.
"I remember being on my hands and knees. The ground was cold and muddy. I pushed back the dead leaves and saw the bright green shoots of spring.
"Under all this decay something was growing. Caring for the garden reminded me to care for myself"