Singer Pete Doherty has spoken about his love for ex-girlfriend Kate Moss and his ongoing battle with drugs.
"I'll love her forever," he told BBC Two's Newsnight programme.
"But whilst I think I'm in any way connected to crack or heroin I can't be in her life. She says it's like having an affair with another girl."
The Babyshambles star was reportedly dumped by the model last month after leaving a rehabilitation clinic in Arizona after just nine days.
"Maybe it was a bit of a rash decision," he told Newsnight's Kirsty Wark. "But I missed London, I wanted to play my guitar and I wanted my books."
'Two different people'
Doherty has rarely been out of the headlines this year, with erratic behaviour, cancelled appearances and a series of arrests all contributing towards his troubled image.
But he insisted the truth was far less sensational, saying the real Pete Doherty and the one depicted in the media were "like two different people".
"The one thing that the tabloids have been consistent with is they haven't shown the slightest bit of interest in the music," he said.
In the interview, to be broadcast on Newsnight on Friday, he likens himself to late footballer George Best - a victim of what he calls "dead monkey brain tabloid fever" whose achievements were "swamped" by his later hellraising exploits.
"For me it's going to be the other way round," he said.
Earlier this year Doherty was nominated for an Ivor Novello songwriting award.