Thursday, May 6, 1999 Published at 07:18 GMT 08:18 UK
Geri tells all on TV
Eyes on Geri: The former Ginger Spice bares her soul
Former Spice Girl Geri Halliwell has been profiled in a British TV film - and she tells how fame left her feeling desperately lonely.
For a review of the programme click here.
Two weeks after she left the Spice Girls, Halliwell asked award-winning film-maker Molly Dineen to make a documentary about her new life.
The result is a 90-minute epic, Geri, screened on Channel 4 on Wednesday. But the film shows an unhappy side to the singer who made fans around the world as cheeky Ginger Spice.
"There's nothing I do when the work stops. Every weekend I start crying," she says.
"I just want some love in my life."
Perched on a parapet at a Paris hotel, she looks at the paparazzi and comments: "Imagine if they got a shot of me. They'd think I was committing suicide - that'd sell a few papers, wouldn't it?"
She ends up telling Dineen she asked her to make the film because she "was just desperate for company. I thought I'd make you my friend".
She also tells her: "You are part of my world. People become my friends - like my accountant is my mate. He has been more than an accountant. Maybe I'm sad, that that's who my mates are."
She also says "one particular member" of the Spice Girls wanted her out of the group.
"I heard George talking about losing his mother. I was a fan," she said.
"I thought I was going to marry him - I was so drawn to him. I gave him my telephone number, gave him big eyes and tried to flirt with him thinking I had a chance.
"How wrong was I? I got second best and we became friends."
Both come from Watford, north of London, and Halliwell adds: "It's not a celebrity friendship. I can't stand that lovey-dovey stuff. We're both famous and part of the music industry.
"But we've both lost a parent, both come from Watford, both have a Mediterranean parent - and both were ugly kids who blossomed."
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