Excerpts from Amish killer's note

Charles Roberts was haunted by memories of his child's death

The following is the first page of a three-page suicide note which Charles Roberts wrote to his wife Marie before attacking an Amish school in Pennsylvania.

Five girls aged between six and 13 were killed in the attack, and another five were injured.

Roberts then turned the gun on himself.

In the letter he speaks of his pain following the death of his premature daughter Elise, nine years ago.

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"I don't know how you put up with me all those years. I am not worthy of you, you are the perfect wife you deserve so much better.

"We had so many good memories together as well as the tragedy with Elise.

It changed my life forever I haven't been the same since it affected me in a way I never felt possible.

I am filled with so much hate, hate toward myself hate towards God and unimaginable emptyness it seems like everytime we do something fun I think about how Elise wasn't here to share it with us and I go right back to anger."

All errors in punctuation, spelling and grammar are as in the letter