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'I had two children by my father'

Miss D speaks about her ordeal to BBC Scotland's Jackie Bird

A woman who had two children by her own father has spoken of her ordeal.

The woman, known only as Miss D, fell pregnant with a girl after being raped by her father when she was 16.

She also gave birth to a boy seven years later. Her father threatened to shoot her if she told anyone the children were his.

Miss D's father is due to be sentenced in court on Tuesday after being convicted last month of abusing Miss D and her two sisters.

The 72-year-old, who cannot be named, abused his three daughters in Dundee and Fife between 1976 and 1993.

During a week-long trial at the High Court in Edinburgh in December, the jury heard how the man began the systematic rape of Miss D, his oldest daughter, in 1979 when she was aged 12.

He had a shotgun and he put me onto the ground and he told me that if I told my mum he would shoot me and say it was an accident
Miss D

He also raped a younger daughter when she was aged between eight and 16, and was further convicted of using lewd and libidinous behaviour towards a third daughter on repeated occasions between 1979 and 1982.

He was brought to justice after his now-adult victims contacted the police, and he was convicted after the week-long trial.

In an interview with BBC Scotland, Miss D - who is now aged in her early 40s and lives in Aberdeenshire - described how her father only stopped abusing her in the early 1990s.

She said: "I was 12 years old and my mother had gone into an ambulance to go and have my baby brother.

"My dad came into the bedroom and he asked me to come into his bed. It was in the early hours of the morning and I thought it was so strange.

"Then he popped me onto the bed and he raped me. He told me that I was to say nothing to my mum."

Later on the same morning, after her siblings had gone to school, Miss D was again raped by her father.

DNA tests

She recalled: "Two months later he took me shooting - he had a shotgun and he put me onto the ground and he told me that if I told my mum he would shoot me and say it was an accident."

Miss D fell pregnant with her daughter at 16 but had a boyfriend who she assumed was the father. It was not until the recent court case that DNA tests revealed it was actually her own father who was responsible.

She gave birth to her son when she was 23 but this time knew it was her father's child because she was not in a relationship.

"He said that it wasn't his and I was whoring about. I said 'I haven't got a boyfriend so it has got to be yours'," Miss D said.

"He said to me that if I let anybody know, my daughter would be taken from me, my son would be taken from me as well.

"Also my brother and my sisters would be taken from the family because they would go to jail and the family would be broken up and I would get the blame of breaking up a family."

Miss D only found out two years ago that her younger sisters had also been abused by their father.

She claimed their mother knew about the abuse in 1984, but did not do anything about it.

I am just hoping that I can go on with the rest of my life and be happy
Miss D

The abuse only stopped in the early 1990s when Miss D was in a steady relationship.

It was two years ago, in the heat of a family argument, that she told her 16-year-old son who his father was.

She said: "He couldn't believe it and he just had a cry. I left him sobbing - I should have given him a cuddle but I was shocked I had said this and I just went to the police station and reported it."

Describing her feelings towards her mother, Miss D added: "She should have come and spoken to us when he was found guilty.

"I was hoping for her to come over and say to me and my sisters 'I am so sorry this has happened' and maybe just have put an arm around us and given us a cuddle, but no.

"She never did that. She was just interested in him. She stands by him to this day."

Miss D said it was her children that had given her the remarkable resilience and strength she had needed to get through her ordeal.

She added: "My children have given me the strength. I can speak to people now about it when I couldn't speak before about it.

"I am just hoping that I can go on with the rest of my life and be happy - that I can get some grandchildren and be happy, just like any other mature woman."

Miss D urged any child who is being abused to go and speak to a teacher or another adult.

She said: "Speak to somebody that you trust and tell them - do not sit in silence, because I did for years."

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